Hey guys. I know this is a weird title for a journal but I just felt like sharing it with all of you. i've been watching anime since late 2009 early 2010 and the more I watched the more I enjoyed. That's how I got into cosplay. Anyway watching anime gives me a sense of peace when things get tough. I feel like i'm in a different world when I watch. Especially when it comes to romance anime (That's the genre I watch most) I don't know what it is about that genre but for some reason I feel loved when I watch something like that. I put myself in the female leads place and feel as if I'm the love interest for the male lead. I guess I do that because my wish is to find someone who cares for me the way the male lead cares for the female lead. Call it wishful thinking I guess. I probably sound weird and ridiculous but that's the reason. I've had so much bad luck with my last boyfriends and I just wish I could find someone like that you know? That's also one of the reasons why I take the place of the female lead in my fanfcitons. I'm always the love interests for the guys. I just wish that one day it will happen and if it's God's willing then it will but if not then I'll end up alone (I'm not trying to sound negative) Who knows maybe someday I'll find someone to play the males to my female cosplays (sakura, Hikari, Yuki, Juliet, Euphemia Risa/Riku etc( Anyway there you have it. Have a nice rest of the weekend.